Come On… Pull Yourself Together, Woman!
Last weekend was a roller coaster ride that left me to reflect on how I have been not myself of late. The general speech I had to give myself in order to slap some sense back into me was “Come on, woman, you are still young! Live life a little. Enjoy your youth!” The closest excuse I can give myself was that work has been sucking life out leaving a hollow body left to function based on practicality and skepticism.
Somehow, it seems like I am living days out of my high school life where I have a fixed schedule and need to coordinate my days in relation to work, commitments, and social life. Home was where I could touch base and regroup before going out with a bag of clothes and necessities as I move to carry out the itinerary I have planned.
Please do not get me wrong, as much as I would like everything to move in linear to my plans; I am not against spontaneous changes to the agenda. Just take it with a pinch of salt, right?
I was at work on Friday with a packed bag for the weekend out at TCU when I found out that one of the main purposes of my trip was cancelled due to an unfortunate event. After riding on the wave of uncertainty, I decided to carry on with my plans to meet up with the guys. Again, my plans were changed at the very last minute that actually irritated me to some extent but all is well as I was able to attend the TCU Chapel Concert Motoko mentioned to me a month ago which I told her I would try my best to attend if possible. Attending the later part of the concert balanced the chi within as I was there to enjoy Tenda-sensei’s composition performed by my favorite voice instructor, Inagaki-sensei and the 木声会.
The initial plan was soon back on track when the guys and I regroup and made our way to the new mall at Makinohara for the free karaoke Sunil was excited about. There were some hiccups and hisses but soon we started singing and dancing, and soon, we all did have a fantastic time. I am not a huge karaoke fan as I prefer “organized” singing. But after hanging out with the guys, it is just fun to go crazy and who really cares even if I sound terrible? Sunil rocked, Kazuto rapped, Matthias and Matthew joined us later and we “partied”!
The slap of reality hit me when I went about with lack of sleep on Saturday. The tiredness of the week and work in general snowballed itself and I felt its crushing weight on Saturday. Having plans after work and hanging out at night is fun. I don’t mind since I am all dressed out for work anyways. With a little freshening up and an energy boost, I don’t look that bad. Thursday I was out at Fujimama’s for Yoko’s little farewell get-together, Friday was the concert and karaoke, but since I didn’t have to work on Saturdays and packing extra items seemed like a hassle, I was dressed in whatever that my hands picked for comfort and convenience. However, I didn’t care too much about what I wore on Saturday… I have lost my will to look cute.
GASP!!! How could this be? I quickly sought for a remedy. Yes, I need to go shopping! I haven’t been out shopping for myself (without the necessity) in a long while. I think it was a record 3.5 months! Autumn is here. I need something to dress up myself for my favorite season and winter. I was right when I hit the mall. Looking at my reflection in the multitude of mirrors, I needed help. I looked like an “aunty/おばちゃん.” After looking around for a while, I returned home with my harvest of a new dress, bag, and knitted jacket. I felt much better.
I met up with Jewel in the evening and we had a yummy Japanese fusion pasta dinner. We caught up over dinner and studied a little at my apartment. A close to the hectic weekend was a relaxing LONG bath and Sunday at Omotesando. Baileyna and I went window shopping at Harajuku and I took her to my favorite place, Meiji-Jingu where we witness a few traditional Japanese weddings and children dedication. There was also the festivities of “thanking the dolls” where dolls of all sorts were collected, blessed, and then burned in dedication to their service to mankind. Yup, there is something new to learn everyday!
So, yeah… I am still young. It is time to pull myself together and enjoy my youth. We are never too old to have dreams and strive for them. Also, be spontaneous and make every event and opportunity an opportunity to learn and enjoy. There is nothing wrong to enjoy my age, so… スーメイ、しっかりにしなさい!
