Reminiscing
The scars are almost gone now. Looking at my right index and pinky, it was just 3 weeks ago that I was having tonnes of fun hanging out with Matthew and Sunil. Thursday, February 1 was the night we went for karaoke at the entertainment center near CNT station. We got Matthias to come along with us as these ARE the people you should go karaoke-ing with. After a day in the Tokyo and Ginza area, we sang for 3 hours with free flow of drinks from the drink and got myself a little buzzed and tipsy with いちご. After karaoke, we spent some time at the game center taking プリクラ and played some 太鼓. It was by having a firm grip on the drumsticks that scraped skin off the fingers I had my rings on. From deep red marks soon after, the skin came of with minimal bleeding and left 2 horizontal marks on my fingers for the past few weeks.
I still remember the songs we sang and the conversations we had. Spending time in Japan helped me realize that I have been straying from my initial plans and got myself sucked into something I am not ready to handle. It is time to pull up my socks to go for the things I set out myself to do. Coming back home is a challenge. The lectures I hear each morning is very much de-motivating and I am made aware that due to the environmental and culture change, people just assume a character for me without even trying to get to know me. Why is it that people always seek for convenience and freeze you in a specific time and space? Are they not aware that there is something more to their assumptions and preconceptions? Do they even bother to find out? Or give me a chance to speak my mind?
Advice and wisdom is appreciated, but I would honor and respect a persons attempt to understand the situation first. Irrelevant talk to me is just a waste of time. A conversation needs two-way communication of expressing, listening and understanding. I do miss the wonderful time spent in Japan, not just the trip, but my life there when people do take me as a person (in the Martin Buber sense) and real conversations were held.
