bunny tales

It’s my birthday today… and believe it or not, I guess I am jinxed out of the annual birthday jinxes. Hmm, wait! Maybe not. Well, for starters, I still have my birthday blues. So what if it is my birthday?

Since the last time I blogged, I still feel pretty crappy. However, I wish to thank the very few who showed their concern. Thanks Mel.

Aunt I is a huge gem by treating me to my first ever manicure and pedicure on Wednesday. I was pampered with massages and getting my nails done fabulously! (*^_^*). I felt a little better after the nice relaxing time at the parlor. Later that evening, we had finner with Aunt Simone and she presented me with a beautifully beaded poncho in black and gold. Groovy, I would say.

Then there was dinner with my dad on Thursday. It was a fun time with food and chatting with my stepmom. I guess I found another nice place for dinner. Oh yeah, I received a card from big sis on Friday too.

Nothing much has been going on at all on September 23. I have yet to have my birthday dinner and movie special. This birthday tradition started during the days of high school where I dragged Joe to go for a dinner and movie with me every year. When I was in Japan, Mervin, Aki-chan, and Rajiv continued the tradition. However, we always went for Italian at Capriciozza. Ooh.. and we always take purikuras too. Hmm, I have to go do that.   (T_T)

I have never been a big party or crowd fan. Even if there were celebrations, there were always held in small groups and only with close loved ones. I miss Miyo’s cakes. I called her last night to send birthday wishes to her and we chatted for a while. And I definitely miss my dinner with Otosan and Okasan… the good conversation, meal, and tiramisu! I reckon that people are busy on this day, and I definitely miss the fact that my birthday will always be a holiday (as in Japan)

Okay, things are not THAT bad over here either. I slept in late today and went out for lunch at my favorite restaurant on Aunt I with Mom, Su-Anne and Chris. Apart from that… nothing much. Everyone has their own plans for the day. Now I guess I have to hunt someone down for my dinner, movie, and purikura… boohoo! Hmm, and I don’t get to extort my gingerbread man from Matthew either. Sniff* But thank you dear for the sweet email. Love you lots!

Well, it is another year to my life. Let’s see what lays before me!

"Happy" Birthday Bunny.

Although this is one bunny who wears her emotions on her sleeves (thus the common description that I am "moody"), I hardly tell people what is truly bugging me. Please don’t get me wrong, but we do agree that we have those who we seek to confide in. However, since I don’t have those who truly understand me at this moment close at hand, allow me to share my thoughts. (You may keep the penny if you think my thoughts are not worth it.)

I miss Japan. I miss everyone and every event I encountered during my years over there, especially those that happened this year and of the recent months. This is not betrayal, but I do find those who I have spend my time with and the things I do over there fulfills me in a certain way. I guess I am spoiled with the convenience and privacy of how I have established myself without the cultural baggage and background people assign to me over there. Even though I am surrounded by the masses of people anywhere I am in the world, I still find myself lonely.

Maybe I am expecting too much. But, I do admit that I am sad and lonely.

There are those whom I miss most. These are the wonderful people who I can just hang out with and feel all the better even without mentioning what has been bugging me because, somehow, they know, they understand, and whatever it is that we do together, I always feel tonnes better.

Coming home is a true challenge. I see the darker side of me resurfacing and I hate that. And it is at this moment in time where I miss Rajiv’s company, Okasan’s wonderful cooking (especially her tiramisu), cakes, delicious goodies, and conversations of my various roomies, YUKA, the smiles that Matthew and Sunil bring, the wonderful conversations and confidence of Ruth, Mark, and Seth. There are those who loves me dearly over here, but I guess not living on the same campus and being at reach at a convenient time and distance do make things very different. I wonder how will I get through this weekend?

My sleep are filled by dreams that are in high details shows how stressed out and disturbed I am. Oh God, please give me peace.

ARRGH!!! I lost my cool last evening. Man! Certain things will always remain the same. Some of us definitely need to grow up and move on with life!

Anyways, on the brighter side…

Aunt I was teasing the condition of my nose the other day with a made up song of “I left my nose in Japan.” Quite true I have to say. It is runny every morning and every time I get out of the shower. I can’t smell what I want to but my nose is super sensitive to the smells which I rather not pick up. And, I CAN’T TASTE ANYTHING! Fancy coming back to the land of great foods but I can’t taste them!

Amidst the craziness of my normal dysfunctional family, my weekend was brightened up LOADS with the sudden dates with my “bestest” guy friends. Ben gave me a call yesterday (while I was still in bed) and told me that he was just minutes away from my place to pick me up for breakfast. YAY!!! B.E.N. BEN!!! We drove over to Burger King about a 3 minute drive away from my place and caught up with each other.

On the same evening, Cho Fatt called me while I was cooking dinner for my family to go out for a movie at KLCC. Sweet! Just like the good ol’ days! The best part was that there was an episode at home with my mom, and hanging out with Cho Fatt after a row with mom is just like the good ol’ days. You have got to love this guy!

So, after running a day of errands on Friday, enjoying a late breakfast with Ben and busying myself around the kitchen the whole day on Saturday; with the great roast lamb dinner (courtesy of my favorite Aunt I) with pasta on the side by the bunny followed by the washing up and late night movie with Cho Fatt… I am famished! Thus, let today will be a day of rest for me indeed!

Yay! Another entry…

Since my returning home, I finally got my "eyes" fixed. I knew that my eye-sight has gone bad since the days of thesis writing. Yep, those long and late nights working on my thesis and the endless hours in front of the computer has given my optician a shock to find out that my eye-sight has deteriorated that much. Well, this bunny is going to be four-eyed for a while as she uses… the brand new pair of glasses she got for herself! I look just the same.

However,

I got a haircut today. (There goes my dreams of running around top-less! I have to postpone that thought again for another year, AGAIN!)

Fancy how everyone says that everything in Japan is expensive; I beg to differ. My pair of glasses cost as much as they would charge for a pair back in good ol’ Chiba New Town. My hair cut was about the same too. Hmm, and to think about the earning power of Malaysians… tsk, tsk… how could they survive?

Anyways, I better make this short and get some physical activities done before I sink my teeth into another of my favorite foods which I couldn’t enjoy in Japan… ROASTED DUCK and real BBQ PORK!!! Aunt I has been spoiling me so much by taking me out for nice meals. Thus far, I had my share of ostrich with dad, and lamb and steak for lunch yesterday with Aunt I. Today, we went to a nice Chinese restaurant for shanghai-nese food. Yummy… this bunny may turn into a piggy soon.

*snort    (>@<)

What has this bunny been up to?

NOTHING!

I think my brain is rotting away as I do nothing everyday apart from sitting in front of the TV, watching whatever that is on cable mindlessly. I seriously need to get back to my reading or get something done for the rest of my holidays.

What has happened since I last blogged? Well, I had an apple that tasted like moth balls. My pc broke and I am stuck to using mom’s pc now. I have been driving myself and others around (funny driving after not being in the driver’s seat for such a long time now), cooking dinners (well, twice so far), hanging out with my sis and/or Aunt I who is visiting us, occasionally having breakfast with my grandparents… yup, I am home, but I am on holiday.

Okay, I did break my hiding and rotting at home by meeting some of my friends from law-school on Saturday at KLCC (the Twin Towers). It was a great time catching up, or rather, being updated by my "bestest" friends of Kemayan ATC. We had the lunch in honor of Khan Kee as she will be heading back to Kuching to be called to the Bar. Sue Lyn was kind enough to organize everything, and Melody’s presence simply made everything fabulous!

I also went out with my guy friends for pizza on Sunday. We were busy laughing about everything that was discussed. Kenneth was the sweetest as usual, and loads of laughs from Gabriel. It was great to meet Ta-ge, Hon Wee again and our buddy since my first year of secondary school, Nathan. The guys were super. They fed me and made me laugh so much. And for old times sake, teased me as usual with the crazy things that they do! Good times. Gabriel was also being an angel to offer to fix my pc.

Coming home is nice (in a way). However, my health says otherwise. My sinus is back and my dust allergy has resurfaced and hitting back hard. Breathing is a pain right now as my nose is always runny. I can’t stop sneezing and I can forsee most of my family expenditure will be spend on Kleenex, tissues, and disposable napkins. Sigh! Maybe I should put my nick as "puffy-eyes-runny-nose bunny!"

Well, got to go blow my nose again. If you guys want to relieve me of my boredom and stop me from rotting, please feel free to drag me out of my home by hanging out, or the least you can do is to call and say "Hi," ok?

Sniff, Sniff… *honk*   (>_<)

"Do you know the Bunny?"

Being me, I am confident to say that I know who I am and I am refuse to conform to what or who people think I am. All my life, people ascribe me an identity of their own without getting to know me. I am sick of that. Do first impressions really matter that much? Hold on, let me rephrase that: Is it fair to form a first impression of someone solely based on your own limited knowledge to a certain group of people categorized by what others tell you without a personal encounter of the subject?

Those who know me are aware of the fact that I am an eccentric person with my own style. I do not chase after what is displayed on the catwalk of the major fashion cities neither would I glue myself to fashion magazine. The way I dress is to my liking and I seriously believe in looking good with what I have. So what if I look different? At least, I know I look presentable, smart, and comfortable! The fairness that I once had on my skin is highly related to the climate that I am exposed to, and being conscious about personal hygiene and grooming doesn’t make me a spoiled brat. And for those who really thinks the length of ones hair defines their character? Oh please!

I am disturbed by the fact that people judge me for the way I choose to speak too. Is it wrong to speak properly with the right use of words and grammar? Am I offensive when I try to practice whatever that has been taught in manners, etiquette and courtesy? One doesn’t have to be from a wealthy family to exercise good manners in deeds and words. Why am I being criticized for trying my best to be polite and using the language correctly? "Oh look, there is one spoiled princess…" Oh, give me a break! Of course, there is the other polar where there are some who think that I am speaking my mind with no knowledge or wisdom of the subject just to catch the attention of others. Sheesh! (And by the way, those who fall into this category more often than not are eavesdroppers, uninvited ears to the conversations that I have with my audience.)

There are those who generalize me that I expect too much from others when I bring up a matter like the above. But do I? I wish to improve myself in every way I can, and truly believe that I should first treat others how I want to be treated. I refuse to discount on my potential. Is it too much to ask for a little genuine love, care, and compassion around, accepting people as they are? I DO NOT EXPECT PEOPLE TO BE LIKE ME, OR CHANGE THEMSELVES TO WHAT I WANT THEM TO BE. What I sincerely ask is to just see a person for who he or she truly is by getting to know them in person.

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So, I have been home for a week now. With all the people who I have met, I pray that I have the patience to deal with the difference in the people’s mentality over here. I am just a simple girl, an ordinary person. Those who truly know me knows that I am just Suemae. Fellow Malaysians, go ahead and call me or treat me as a sucker as I continue to choose the path to strive for what is good and right. Many worry that I am going to be taken advantage of; however, for those who are really concerned, please join me in my prayers that it is in the darkness where people will come to know the existence of light, and that this little light will not be snuffed out.

"I am crazy, but not…"

There are a lot of things that make this furball one hellufa crazy bunny. Yup, people call me crazy, and I don’t deny it.

I had a map on my back from the sunburn I had from the beach. It is much better right now and hurts less. But I am one well-browned bunny!

Since I last blogged, I was out with Masako at the local matsuri at 多々羅田 park near school. We dressed up in our yukata, had a great time eating 広島風お好み焼き, a can of chu-hi each, and danced to the matsuri music. Mark was with us too. Though I didn’t try it out for myself, but I would say the best part of the matusri was observing people scooping up goldfish with a paper scoop! I got two terrible blisters on my feet though.

I met up with the youth on Sunday. Aww, I missed them so much! Tyler, Chris, Erik, Pierce and I went for a super expensive lunch after church. As we were walking towards Harajuku, there was a parade going on and there were just dances performed by the Japanese in their traditional attire of all the different regions of the country. It was a fun day.

I can’t really remember what happened on Monday… if any one of you know, please refresh my memory for me, ok?

Tuesday was a crazy one. I was out for an interview and hung out at the nearby mall after that. After coming back, I was at Uchunomiya-san’s place catching up. On my way back, I was suddenly in the mood to do something crazy… I bumped into Seth and popped a question.

"Hey Seth, fancy going to DisneySEA?" This was at 6.15pm! And, WE WENT!

Haha… yup, we were THAT crazy. Since it was still the summer holidays, the place was jammed packed! We only managed to get on 4 rides… but it was totally fun! We got to ride on the newest attraction, TOWER OF TERROR! It was so COOL! As usual, Disney has outdone itself as a theme park and it was totally fabulous at the decorations and all. But the ride was so much fun that I felt my brains shifting in my head! It was awesome.

Then, the next craziest thing is that, I stayed up all night, packed… and the very next thing, I am back in KL. Yup… I am home people and you know where and how to get me. Just drop me an email if you need my new cell number, otherwise, you may just call me at my place.

Yup, it is just so crazy… I can’t imagine I found the heart to leave Japan, but hey, to all of you there… I love you guys, and "I will be back!" Now, I just have to get settled with the madness that is over here… LAUGHS!

Will write again soon, when I find some form of sanity…